i've been on a binge the past few days. take today for instance, i've had about 4 slices of cheese toast (and that's only because i'm out of cheese), 6 slices of emmental on its own, a whole bar of dark chocolate, many pieces (app. 8) of keropok, half a can of cocktail sausages(chicken), a slice of turkey breast, noodles for lunch, leftover fried rice from my sister's brunch, and two striploins (a tad too well done), butter rice (too much butter added) and some french beans for dinner. and right now i'm having chocloate cravings like a little girl.

consumption does not fill the void

it's saturday: that's another week gone by. another week wasted; i really oughta be tidying my room up and reading that backlog of magazines which sit in piles cluttering up the floorspace, instead of watching daria all day in my pajamas leaving the room only to get cheese toast or to check the mail. it's been a week, but everybody says don't expect it to come so soon. coincidentally it's been 2 weeks since i've been clean and 2 weeks since y. left, although it feels much longer than that.

went for a drive last night: not quite as enjoyable as i thought it'd be. maybe the music wasn't right.

my sister owes me some money.

halfcutkid and his dumb sidekick torretorre have got the STUPIDEST livejournals ever. everytime i think the nadir is reached, they just manage to show me a whole new low.

A.: I'm sorry it didn't work out but I think you showed a lot of strength of character and I'm proud of you, if you'd allow me the presumptiousness to do so. Something else I really admired: the lucidity and frankness you exhibited in your post, something I wish I had myself. It's kinda sad we're communicating this way but I don't think it'd happen any other way
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Anyway I have nothing to say today, but I feel I should leave something for those of you who check for updates everyday - I like MTV radio daria

ever so often i say 'that's all behind me now' but just as often i spend whole days lying in bed replaying scenes from the past in my head, indulging in the sensational richness of my guilt and regret and plain old sadness.
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i'm really sleepy right now / weather was horrid today / i think i have something to do but i can't remember what it is / i'm beginning to doubt the quality of the letters to y. i've written and sent out so far / what IS it i have to do? / will put the dumplings in the steamer before i bathe. but i'm not hungry / i need a shower / i want to write another letter. god i feel so sad and alone!
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season 3 daria has such emotional depth. i think the people have more facial expressions now. and howl is quoted like 6876 times